Get in the booth & confess, bitch
Today is a week after my 32nd birthday, and I’m still here, trying to figure out this game of life. But, through all my zoning in and out of thoughts, overthinking shit and countless amounts of conjuring’s – I have definitely been realizing that; I've changed incredibly; half-a-year in bed would do that to a person though.
And, as of last Sunday, I said goodbye to another year, younger. BUT, before fully saying fucken cyaaa! one final tribute needs to be done...
& with the internet as my witness ---these are:
1.Trying to show the middle finger to my old ways & craves.
because, my face is fat due to them and 31 showed me no mercy. My lack of self-discipline didn’t help either. IT’S OKAY THOUGH – I exercised for 30mins the night before 32… so, I should be good 😉
Like literally, doesn’t exist anymore because 32 now 😊
3. MININALIZATION is NOT my thing!
But. it's time girrrllll!!
4. Glassons = 16yr – 24yr old Kylie.
Thirty one was a no-go, what made me think turning 32 would change that?
5. Friends… sensitive subject for me, however it needs addressing.
Hmm. I’m learning that sometimes, letting go is the only option. actually. that’s all I’m gona say.
6. SAVING. haha! I'm the fucking worst.
You see, the only way this is possible is if I say goodbye to shopping.
The next few years are kinda’ important, so shopping, it’s been real but – bye bitch! ...but, I make no promises, okay?!
7. Bedrest was no hidden secret either...
but my depressive state was. I only let you see what I wanted. No one knew.
8. “You’re not a mum / you don’t have kids, so you don’t know”
– I fucking hate those lines! Don’t say them to me, like, ever. i've heard that shit 1 too many times.
9. Max Key.
HAHA hearted a photo of my boy, on IG. - highlight moment??
uh. just incase you missed it ; i was joking about the highlight moment bit!
I'm always torn between loving them & needing to punch their faces, because... cunts.
This is why I will always choose fur babies above most!
12. YouTube –
Could say I got a little consumed..
13. Oh, and during 31, I also got to see who was actually there for me and who wasn’t.
Unfortunately, the “who wasn’t” stood out the most.
14. I discovered Shane Dawson before 32 ,
and it’s been total obsessiveness since 😉, 31 did me well discovering him 🖤
15. I was humbled.
by many things.
16. The number 31 itself ,
irritated me the whole time – uneven 🤬
They've become my new black.
I allowed my relationship with MaryJane to not feel like a dirty little secret. I exposed our relationship in a blog post (click here)
19. I can finally see!
After years, I finally took the eye test- FAILED and ended up with glasses 🤓best ever!!
20. Mirror, Mirror.
I’m still struggling daily with my self worth/love. I still wish I could love me, whole heartedly 💔
31 showed forgiveness. It took him 3yrs possibly 4 but, it was a positive result in the end.
22. Heart break💔
23. MAVERICK 🦋
He came at the right time.
24. My very first metalhead wedding.
I won’t lie. The build up to this day was a fucking cunt and anxiety tried to ruin it for me by convincing me not to go... don't worry, I beat it! I didn't let it win, ha! Duck you anxiety!!🖕
I haven't been home in almost 3yrs & I'm not even mad about it.
it's slowly fucking taking bits & pieces of my heart and I'm not okay with it. For whatever fucking reason, please know you can always message me if you ever need someone. Plesse know, YOU ALWAYS HAVE A CHOICE!!!
Woohoo! 31 got to see in the new Prime Minister of New Zealand 😁😁😁 and I couldn't be more happy!!!
28. Stranger Things ...
Um. It's true. I’ve never seen it.
The only Male I’ll ever be inlove with!
Still my favourite ever.
31. STILL ,
The only one I can trust & depend on 100%