Even though I haven’t finished my “Time – Line” section over on the ATTSS website yet (no surprise there, as I am Queen of procrastination), ANNNDDD I haven’t been very consistent with posting on due days lately… But, it is no secret to many of you that I am in a wheelchair, right? *& the crowd goes AWWWW* - don’t do that, please. Just. Don’t. because, it’s not cool, OK?! :)
It’s just a wheelchair and it’s just a disability! They do not make me contagious and they certainly do not define who I am as a person.
Although, it’s frustrating as FUCK at times! Come onnn! imagine no fingers, feet, legs, semi-upper, full lower body parts that work anymore (mine haven’t done so, in like, 18years) – that would drive anyone to the fuck you cunt bin now and then, wouldn’t it?! OH!! and I forgot to mention the fact that I can’t even shit in complete privacy. So yaknow, give me a little break, guys!
But, I’m here!… and I’m still living the life I have, the best way I can!!! And it’s going pretty fucking sweet – because, why wouldn’t it? OHHHH…did you…wait!...did you think the wheelchair or disability…or BOTH… *yawnssss! took away from being able to have a sweet and happy life?! Like, seriously??! And, if this is the case, then we can no longer remain friends! Hmm…
I mean, it’s not all Mary Poppins’, that would just be way too boring for me! But for the most part, I live a very rich quality-of-life, filled with LOVE, A PARTNER-IN-CRIME, FAMILY, FRIENDS, CARE, GOOD HEALTH and a long list of sooo much more!!! All of which, I am very grateful & thankful for.
HOWEVER, recently though – I forgot my way and ended up allowing little invisible demons to intrude on my mind space. And… well… they fucked with my-train-of-thought. I won’t even blame them, I allowed them to invade it! and slowly but surely all I could see was dark clouds. My mind was foggy. Filled with negative SHIT. Just call me; Negative fucking Nancy or Debbie Downer!!
Now, I go through these bastard stints every so often and it is not a fucking walk in the park! It’s not even a wheel in the damned park!!! And, everything good & positive in my life just vanishes out of thought… out of sight for me – I’m not blind, I just lose all the fluffy feels, my life is the shittiest life of all lives and then all kinds of uglies join my little party. It is not my kind of party! Wait… was I even invited? Pfftt. More like forced to be there! I hate that party. Ew. & the fact that I’ve used the word party 7, 000 times (well, only 3 times) in the same paragraph, annoys me. Because, it just does.
ANYWAY. I’m NOT about that shit (the pity parties in my head). I’m here right now, to share my HAPPIES with anyone or everyone who can be bothered reading them. I personally think you should just be bovvid, mate!!! Espesh. If you’re having a shitty time!
I want to share my happies not only with you guys but also, because I needed and wanted to remind myself to not be a downer. And remind myself that, I actually live a fucking amazing life!! And, yaknow, maybe it might help you or someone you know, to do the same – because, we humans often forget that, even the little things in our lives matter, and we should and need to remember the things that make us HAPPY!!!
So, my little reading-whores, these are 5 things that make me happy!!!
Ahhh! Of course my #1 HAPPY is this crazy, funny, grumpy, caring, selfless, opinionated, know-it-all, sensitive, sarcastic, potty-mouthed, amazing cunt who has been right by my side since day 1!!! Like any other couple or couple-to-be, we were put through the trials and tests but we came out on top!
This beautiful soul knows how to push EVERY fuck you button in me! But it doesn’t change the fact that only she can make me 100% happy – she’s my happy! Love her face so much!!!
#appreciateHER #LOVEher #shesMYhappy #mynumber1 #myLOVE #blessedtohaveHER
FUR BABIES ❤
Right. So, anyone who knows me, would definitely know that our fur babies are our kids! Shadow, Candy, Sephora, Lily, Jirugi & Harvest ❤ they make my crappy shit faaade away with their unconditional love and affections they give. How can that not make me happy?!
Each of them have their own little unique personalities that always amaze me! I could honestly watch them for hours! It makes me happy that they chose us to be their human!
#loveTHEM #6furbabies #SixTimesTheTroubles #worthit #SCSLJH #myHAPPY
NATURE + OCEAN ❤
I’m such a country girl at heart. Grew up being a water baby. Being out in nature or the ocean is SO refreshing! It clears away any shitty jujuz I’m going through and my mind, body & soul begins to feel alive and most definitely HAPPY!!!
Sometimes, it’s nice to be out with nature or on or near the ocean! Away from concrete. Technology. People – mainly people, because sometimes… I can’t stand people. #sorrynotsorry
#beONEwithnature #myHAPPY #theOcean&me #breatheIN #breatheOUT #refreshing #beautiful
WTF right!? I’m one lazy ass mofo at the best of times, BUT! This shit brings out the happy I crave for! believe it or not! I can’t believe it myself. Fuck, I surprised ME when I typed fitness!
I may have no fingers, feet, legs, semi-upper, full lower body parts that work anymore but I love using what I do have left to see how far I can be pushed or push myself. & with more and more progress I make, the happier I become!
#myHAPPY #isthistrue?! #Fitness&ME
I saved this badbitch for last. Don’t get shit twisted, I have a fucking LONG list of things that make me happy and give me fluffy feels but aint nobody got time for my endless list haha. I’M SERIOUS! You don’t even know how hard it is for me to not share it with yous though!
ANYWAY – back to myhappy #5!!
ATTSS: all the things she said. This is MY baby! My place, my playground to share, say, express however, whenever, whyever (yes I just made that up 😊) I want! Writing has always been a passion of mine, so, to be able to write with freedom is what makes me superfucking-happy! I love it SO much! Everything about my ATTSS makes me happy!
Having a small audience/following makes me happy as well! It doesn’t bother me at all, if I don’t have or don’t reach 1,000 people, yes, it is a goal of mine to reach high/er figures but it’s not top priority, it would be a bonus 😊, but, as long as I am writing & creating – I am HAPPY!!!
#myHAPPY #myATTSS #mybaby #myplayground
SO. There ya have it, my happies! What are yours? Share them with me, I’d love to read them. or, if not with me, then with someone else! K, GO! 😊
Stay happy, Keep smiling XX