Was I ever ready?? Why do I fuck around every year?! So many why’s and not enough time, because – why would time wait for me? Christmas is literally DAYS away! Arrgghhhhhh! I may have just stopped for a moment and ripped out my hair due to stress…
And my Mum has just left (8am, Thursday) a few days early so that she could be home in Tolaga Bay with the rest of the family for Christmas. I’ve been asked so many times if I’m going to be there too – my reply; oh fuck no!, maybe I didn’t need to be so blunt with it huh? Hmm yeahNah’ I did. #sorrynotsorry
Wifey’s still asleep, along with our son Jirugi and probably the 7 thousand cats we don’t own because we only have three. And I’m out in the lounge typing up a storm in hopes that, getting my “feelings” or “thoughts” out will take my mind off the xmas stress ha ha. not a fucking chance though! OH & I’m trying to keep my eyes open because I must’ve subconsciously thought that 5am waking up was a fantastic idea to go through with. But the sun is shinning bright, sky is blue and everyone I love, are alive and happy so I guess I have lots of blessings and should just shut the fuck up and be jolly about life atm, right?! It is the xmas, festive season after all.
I think I need to re-look at & re-evaluate my resolutions for the new year because the shit I put on my 2016 one involving Christmas is so not what it has resulted in, and that disturbs me. Maybe I just shouldn’t have resolutions? Mine seem to fail, year after year and that doesn’t just disturb me; - it pisses me off, like, SO much! All I know is, something needs to be done or changed!
Presents were meant to be gathered throughout the year – FAIL. I’m stupid for even putting this on my resolutions list because every fucking time I end up last minute gift shopping. & sure enough, this year was no different. I actually did 95% of our xmas gift shopping last night – Yeeeeep! I am fucking INSANE doing it 3 – 4 days before C-day! Safe to say my eyebrows had gone from independent individuals to connected and mom-browing… for a couple of reasons ha..ha! I wont mention the reasons… *cough cough* wifey *cough* and *cough* asshole people *cough*… there’s a lot of coughing going on lol
Presents were purchased – YAAAY! But like I said, only 95% booooo! So there could be more hair-ripping and mono-browing later on during the day. Don’t forget I’m tired as fuck, so it should be interesting ha ha. I think I’m scared, I hope the wifey is prepped for this shit – for my shit. . .
OH. & don’t even get me started on the food side of things ha ha. Wifey has banned me from grocery shopping because apparently, I over spend?? …alright, so that isn’t a lie. The most input I’m allowed to give now, is the list. & I’m okay with that. You guys all know about me and my obsession for list – making!
This Christmas is definitely going to be a “winging – it” type of xmas for us. Apart from breakfast! We’ve got that badboy sorted as it is our little family tradition (you’d already know this if you’ve read one of my previous Christmassy posts)
Winging it should be fun though… interesting, but fun hehe! So here’s to a very Merry (fingers are crossed in my mind, with hope that all will be okay’ish…) Christmas and a fucking Happy New Year for all! & just remember, it’s not about gifts or the amounts or the tree or the best this or that… it’s about family, friends, loved ones and the time spent together.
Enjoy or at least be really fucking good at pretending to enjoy it (wine may help you here), so you don’t ruin it for everyone else (maybe wine isn’t the best choice as it may unleash the truth & your inner-assholingness), if that’s the case – stay home girrrl ha ha!
Stay safe, Keep happy boo <3 xxx