Wednesday, last week has had me sick af with a chest / bacterial infection 🤢🤮
I feel depleted.
I’m on hiatus from gym, training with David & any other appointments for the week.
being sick is so shit
It’s been a consistent week!
gym & Fit Futures = FOUR days bitchhhh! Haha this is a huge deal for me.
such a fucking mean end of week!!!
bring on next week!
Gym today with David.
I’d be lying if I said I wanted to go🥴
i’ve felt like utter shit all day. Woke up feeling nauseous. Haven’t eaten like I usually do (not complaining lol)
I’ve been on & off with vertigo all day.
on my period too🙄🖕 so that’s lovely!
Self-hating has been on my list as of late. Today is no diff.
feeling fat af.
workout with David in 30mins.
guess I’ll get my shit together & go.
I haven’t fallen off the bandwagon, I promise!
finding a balance through my chaos is proving to be more challenging than I thought😅. Bare with me. PLEASE! I have a shit load of uploading & updating in a few of my sections on the site, which, I will do!
I have removed the food section. I couldn’t keep up with logging each meal/foods lol & I’m sorry! #cantkeepup
I don’t workout until 8pm tonight. It’s only 5.30 atm & I’m already trying to talk myself out of doing it.
i apparently have legitimate reasons?!
im on my period
im sore from being on my period
im moody cos of my period
i’ve got a sore back & sore fucking tummy
im spasmy cos I don’t have my meds
im still in aches from last nights workout.
none of those are legit at all😅🙄
I had a lunch date with my Kate yesterday (1/6/20) at Breakers. I was mindful about what I should & should not be eating whilst looking at their menu. I was in no way strict on myself, at all. I had no regrets either, with my choices. I enjoyed every bit. Portions we reasonable, not overboard at all. I didn’t self-hate afterwards like I usually do.
i didn’t over-indulge like I usually would.
i was actually happy with my food intake yesterday. Also trying out Keto bread from Countdown— ahhhh. $10 wtf🙄🖕AND it’s umm lol an acquired taste, man! I’m still trying to “acquire” lol
fuck. So, tomorrow I’m going to weigh myself... thought I’d be an adult & book that shit in, I guess once it’s done, then it’s DONE! I was alright yesterday (Monday) after booking an appointment, BUT! Today makes it ONE day away 😅😕 and now it’s less than 24hrs away... like I said, FUCK! Lol
AND, my Kate is coming with... eeeekkk!
I’m so embarrassed & nervous.
Also, I remembered to get the weight of my chair. I must be business aye. Like, actually?!
time to face the scales & numbers girrrrllll!
watch this space.
I . Fucked . Up!
& I actually thought I was prepared. NOPE! Not for what went down that's for sure lol epicccc fail!
Started off by chilling with one of my closest friends for the day ... we decided to have a sesh with MJ ---this was the beginning... I just hadn't seen the bigger picture yet.
Munchies eventually kicked in :/... this is where, brain lost all rational thoughts. All things healthy & good left the fucking building! & took my rational thinking brain with it.
Healty food & portions, where? Who? What?!
box made chocolate moist cake with buttercream icing, chip & dip and for dinner, fish & chips :/
We were so fucking sick after the cake. Few hours later, another MJ hit & boooom! Ready for dinner! Fml!
So much regret & guilt once it came to bedtime.
1. I failed myself
2. Guilt & regret stayed the night
3. Negative thoughts process
My first fuck up for this for 2020.